You Wouldn't Look So Bad If You Cut Off Your Arms

So I'm  sitting here on Sunday night with my family feeling blessed to have so many amazing opportunities up and coming in my life and I happen to see a fresh comment on a social media platform bashing me, my physique and telling me that I look like a man. They also went on to state that I wouldn't look so bad if my arms were cut off but my face still looked like a chipmunk.

Now imagine for a moment that you are in my situation. Imagine all your insecurities are surfaced fro m one social comment and from that one comment every good mood and mindset has just been ruined. That is what happened to me. My mindset and mentality just got crushed.

I think I mentioned before how as a female who packs on a large amount of muscle, I already am self conscious at times about my size and manliness qualities. However as it takes me months to learn to love and accept myself. One moment ruins all the progress. I'm not writing this as a pity party and to shower me with compliments.

I'm writing to make myself accountable. Yes I publicly post photos of myself on social media and yes it does allow anyone on the internet to comment their opinion. It's a comment, as much as it pains me to read from a stranger who knows nothing of my struggles they are entitled to their own words and opinions.

This sport as I have said before and I will say it again has allowed me to recognize how social media and society determines beauty standard and it's absolute bullshit.
I love being different. We each are and as much as one person can bring me down, I'll get back up- Keeping kicking ass and doing my shit.

Thanks for reading my venting blog xo

Shannon